Can we just stop this game when you pretend to love me and I
pretend to believe you, we are not fooling anyone, anymore. Not even ourselves.
I’m tired and sick to be sad and thinking if this is the
kind of love that I deserve, that maybe I’m not worthy or special or unique or
just not the girl for you. Or thinking if this I really how love supposed to
feel, in that way don’t count me in.
I know you don’t love me anymore and you know it in your
heart but we stick together, we stick to this love because we think is the
right thing to do, because is the logic, what is expected, for just not letting
go everything we went through.
Every time we are together is like we are not even there, on
the same spot, we are cold and distend and we don’t know how to get to each other
again. Is like we need a map to a place we used to know by heart, a place that
was like home, sweet and warm, full of laugh and joy.
Tears run through my eyes writing down this letter, but my
heart is bleeding these words and I can’t hold them back anymore, I’m not that
strong. I’m not that brave to jump and be without in this world but neither I’m
that coward to stay where I’m not wanted so I'm torn.
Like I say love shouldn't be this sad way...
